A change will do you good

Just a quick heads-up to anyone who might be reading...a small audience, but a very valued one indeed.

I haven't abandoned the blog. I just had to take a step back from things as I've been feeling overwhelmed and quite blue lately.  Not that that has anything to do with the blog, but it's given me time to think.  I feel as if I'm making very little progress both in giving this blog an identity, or finding it a readership.  

The big wide blogging world is a bit scary to someone like me.  The Twitter conversations flash by too fast, the linkies seem to close before I even fire up the laptop, and I constantly seem to be reading blogs a week behind.  It's just yet another cool kids' gang I can't seem to fit into.  That hasn't helped the dip in my mood these past few weeks, so I had to take myself out of that headspace.

This blog began with the idea of a diet blog (hence the name)...but I fell off that wagon before I even got this place off the ground.  Then I tried to shape it around the 101 things I am trying to achieve in 1001 days, which is fun for me but probably not so interesting for anyone else.  My biggest hit counts have been for my mummy/family posts, which is great...except there are a lot of mummy bloggers out there, many of whom run rings around me both in terms of quality and prolificacy, not to mention their social media presence.

So what to do?  It was time to strip it back...why am I even blogging?  Well, I blog for various reasons.  First and foremost, I love it (I have kept a personal one since the internet first landed in my house back in 1999).  I love recording my life, getting my thoughts out, and writing for writing's sake.  I also blog to feel part of something, to have a base to refer back to when I go out reading all the other blogs that I love.  But no blogger can deny that they also blog to be heard.  I'm not talking about Big Brother "star" attention seeking, or even hundereds of followers on Twitter.  I just want to be read by people who get me, connect with people who get me, and make friends with people who get me.  Particularly when it comes to my role as mother, and various other interests (like blogging!) I don't have anyone in my daily life who is on the same page as me...and that can get pretty lonely.

In my peronal blogging, a 'hook' was never neccessary.  It was (and still is) simply like sharing your journal or diary with a select few others who share theirs with you in return.  Blogging in the public sphere is different, and I appreciate that.  So I'm going to try and focus this blog a little more.  It will still be a mummy blog, it will still be a blog about achieving little goals, and it will most definately still be my blog.  But it will have a more defined flavour, and hopefully that will give it a bit more of an identity.

Now I just need to find time to do it...